thought of changing my template, but somehow it just did'nt fit. i guess i'm not ready for change. i feel uncomfortable thinking about change. and to think that it's the only thing permanent in this world. maybe that explains why i haven't been feeling quite right these past few days. somehow i don't seem to fit. anywhere. i become paralyzed and i freeze. i totally let go. and lose all control. now, i'm regaining it all back. just you wait as i pick up the pieces. it's a new beginning but i left myself somewhere in the ending. and i have to find my way back. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.