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= kailangan ko lang ilabas!

= hayz!

=bakit kasi?

=bakit?!!!?

Help me Lord God!

expectations lead one to disappointments.

disappointments lead to realizations.

realizations lead to action or inaction.

which one to choose?

which one to choose?

Hearts Day '08

Hearts Day = Valentines Day!

This year's Valentine felt quit ordinary compared to previous years... as if I ever expected 

for something out of the ordinary to happen. Hehe. Maybe it was also due to the fact that I
was quite busy that day... but this year's "hearts day" so to speak, made me realize things that
are more important. Things I should be putting more value at this point in my life. Before I
admit to envying and longing also for a special someone to profess their love for me... (sounds cheesy, mushy and corny...haha... pero kaya nga fantasy lang...), but Valentines is not all about
that kind of love alone. Love may come in different shapes and sizes... in friendships (thank you
for a Valentine night spent with you...had a lot of fun, missed you a lot! Appreciated the effort you put through just to show you care, sensya I wasn't able to put the same effort.); in ones family (Unconditional love! That's how much our family value us, although they might not openly say it, actions undeniably shout it out to us! Hope you guys felt the love I feel for you from that small token of sweetness... Hehe.); in our Savior who died just to save us (The prayer meeting 
made me realize just how much God loves me, and that no matter what He will always be there
for you and me. He loved me first and He loved me still despite. Isn't that simply amazing?!) :)

Love is definitely in the air. It's all around us. We just have to be sensitive enough to widen
our hearts and receive the love unselfishly given to us! Kaya what are you waiting for? Love, love and love even more! Hehe. Kilig, kilig! :)

paranoid me

i still can't read you. i still get nervous as to what you might be thinking. i stress over the fact that something seems to be wrong and maybe, just maybe with a big possibility i might have caused you to feel such. i'm paranoid, i know. but i guess that's how it is when you care for someone. you fret, you worry, you agonize... that in a flash of a moment, you might make a wrong move to cause 
the fragile connection to break 

and 

be 

shattered 

forever.   

Smiling Amidst the Struggle

“Cooperation is doing with a smile what you have to do anyway.”

This, I guess, is one of the things I find hard to do. I admit that most of
the time I easily lose my temper. Before I thought that I am a really patient 
person, but was I wrong. Nowadays, I often catch myself grudgingly doing 
things for other people. Thoughts of wanting to rattle them to reality is what often occupies my mind (My bad!), and to think I'm in the field 
of having to relate well with other people. It will take lots of effort if
not done willingly, but with just your heart put into the work, it will be
a piece of cake (I hope so). This makes me appreciate service oriented 
people who put their lives on the line for people they don't even know. It is actually one of my biggest dreams and probably the goal I 
have been pursuing. This only makes me realize that a lot of work still 
needs to be done with my character. I need a lot of grace (tons even!). 

I'll take this opportunity to apologize for the many persons I have lashed 
out on, even for no reason at all. For the people who love me, whom I have
 failed to love equally in return. For the many tears, for the pain, for the 
unforgivable words, for the sadness... I'm sorry.