Just got my grades!!!

Finally, the dreaded moment has arrived. Don't worry, I have no failing grades. But all my grades are lower compared to that of last semester. Well, that's life. It's just sad to know that I could have done better... lazy me! Anyway I'm happy for my friends... we all seem to have survived the hardships of our first year in college. Now I can finally sit back and relax knowing that everything's a ok! Still wishing all of you a happy summer! :) Smile and Be Happy! God Bless y'all!

Worry Free!

First time since nag-summer... late ako nagising! 9am... late na yun! Every night for the past few days... I would be sleeping super late... madaling araw na. And yet I would wake up... 7am latest and 5am earliest. Pero today... gulat ako kasi late na me gising... siguro kasi la na ko masyadong inaalala. Feel ko na talaga ang summer!

Isip ko nga what things I can do this summer? Para naman masabi ko na may nagawa ako. Tsaka super boring na eh...

Osige guys, hanggang dito na muna... Ciao!

Depressed?

Okey... sabi ko tatanggapin ko lang kung nu man mangyayari poero ayaw ko naman magpaka-plastic... slight na na-depress me. Kasi ganito nangyari...

Andun na kami ng around 2:00pm ata... Dami na sobra tao... 50 applicants lang muna ieentertain nila for the day... yung iba pinabalik na lang. Buti nga abot kami... pang number 46 na nga ako eh. Mga 4pm na kami na-interview. Dalawa kasi sila... yung isa mukhang mabait at ma-chika... yung isa opposite... Syempre dahil swerte ako... dun ako sa opposite. Pagtapos namin antay. Ang tatanong lang ay... name... age... occupation ng parents at bakit sali... halos lahat yun nasa form na eh. Bad ako pero isip ko... looks talaga tinitignan. Sobrang la na ko pag-asa kasi 10 appplicants lang tatanggapin. Kailangan ko ng tanggapin ang masaklap na katotohanan... kanina talaga depressed me... now tanggap ko na. Buti naman. Yaw ko feeling... pangit! Hehe... tinulog ko na nga lang since la me makausap.

Well, okey na rin tong experience na toh. Naisip ko siguro pagka-graduate ko at need na maghanap ng job... same din. Need to face the failures... Hirap din talaga! Kaya yan1 Aja! Sama toh sa experiences this summer! :) Smile na dapat!

Try... Living...

I never thought one could feel this way
This unusual feeling of inner lightness
That makes anything and everything bearable

I have come to the point where one realizes
The most essential in this world
Those things that have been neglected through time

Having this certain feeling is somehow strange
Yes, I'm happy to have finally come to this point
And yet I feel that maybe it's too late

But as they say nothing's too late
Unless you didn't try
And so I continue to try

I am still breathing
I am still alive
And yes I am living!

written: March 20, 2006

P.S. Never give up, never surrender! Aja! :)

Home Alone

I'm here all alone...home alone. Walang tao dito ako lang... alis kasi sila lahat, may kanya-kanyang lakad. Ako mayang hapon pa. Kaaasar iba yung feeling ko... kabado. Panu ba naman kakanood ko lang kaya ng "Shutter" recently... takot ako! Kasi hindi talaga ako yung taong manonood ng horror. As much as possible, nilalayuan ko. Kaya yun, feeling ko nga super achievement na ang panonood ko ng "Shuuter". AHHHHH! napa-paranoid na ata ako. Nagkuwento pa siobe ko na may nakita daw siya kagabi... kala niya kapatid ko, pagtingin niya la naman daw tao. This is giving me the creeps. Palitan na topic...

Well, big day din to sa akin tulad ng post ko kahapon. First time ko mag-apply ng summer job. Ninenerbyos na ko kung noh mangyayari. Kung matanggap ako, di masaya. Kung di naman, experience din yun. Kaya yan! Aja! :) Pag-pray ninyo ko ah! Hay!

Summer Na!!!

At last dumating na rin ang summer. Pero oo nga inaantay nating lahat toh pero pag andyan na, parang la naman magawa. Super boring... di mo malaman kung nu ba dapat mong gawin at kung may naimbento ba na kapaki-pakinabang na gawin bukod sa pagkain at pagtulog... at kung meron bakit di pa umaabot sakin ang balita! Sabagay... choice nga naman natin kung gusto ba nating maging productive. Kaso tuwing summer parang lagi kong gustong may gawin, madalas di naman natutpad... i don't want to make any more promises. Binibigo ko lang sarili ko. Hopefully, may mangyaring meaningful this summer.
As of now ang ginagawa ko lang ay... kumain, matulog, mag-text at mang-gulo, mag-internet, magsulat, magpakabaliw, manuod ng tv, makipagdaldalan, magpagupit ng hair,maghugas ng pinggan, maligo, mag-toothbrush... nothing extraordinary... lahat kayang gawin ng ibang tao... pero bukas baka magbago na ang lahat... mag-aapply kasi ako ng summer job. Sana talaga matanggap ako... kinakabahan na ako.
Have a happy summer guys! Wag ninyo ko tularan... don't be a bum! :)

Life Cycle…

All of us go through life, wanting to find our purpose. As we get older, the more we long to live life fully. I envision myself, growing older and going through life… as each year pass by… I leave something behind. Not anything material, but something more important than that. I want to be able to touch lives and to inspire… each life touched is a part of myself given away.

Well, that’s what I want to happen. Hopefully, I’ll be able to accomplish this dream. Maybe, we just don’t see it but I guess the reality is for every person we converse with, for every smile we give… we already are able to reach out and touch lives in our own little way. I believe that in each of us lies an angel deep within! God Bless!

Life Cycle

The tree flourishes
Growing beautifully
With leaves so green
And trunk so sturdy

Yet like many
Through time
It withers
It fades

Every leaf that falls
Caressed by the wind
Turning round and round
Until it reaches the ground

Each one signifies something
Up to the last leaf
It gives a part of itself
Just like a teardrop

written: March 22, 2006

Ooooh... so that's how it works?

I have realized a lot of things in the past few days...

1. It isn't always supposed to be about you...
(hindi pwedeng puro sarili mo lang ang iniisip mo. may pakiramdam naman ang mga tao sa paligid mo kaya kailangan mo rin maging sensitive.)

2. What you are feeling...may not be really the feeling of the other person towards you.
(kung feeling mo asar sayo yung isang tao, more often than not, hindi yun totoo. kung feeling mo ikaw lagi yung api, tingnan mong mabuti, baka sila na pala ang nasasaktan mo.)

3. Thinking negative can be very stressful, it will lead you nowhere. So choose the other option and think POSITIVE.
(nakakatulong to....promise! sa bawat problema may solusyon, kailangan mo nga lang hanapin.)

4. Life is what you make it!
(lagi kang may choice kaya wag mong sisihin ang ibang tao sa mga pagkakamali mo.)

5. With God all things are possible!
(grabeh! totoo to'! i have been through a lot lately. sometimes i feel as though i would crumble anytime....but through it all God was with me. Trust in Him, he knows what's best!)

Hindi purkit nasabi ko itong mga bagay na to...ay perfect na ang life ko. Life is life... hindi mo na mababago yun. Kahit anong gawin mo... kailangan mo pa rin harapin ang mga problema. Don't despair! Your not alone! Kahit ano pa ang problema mo ngayon... lilipas din yan... magugulat ka na lang... tapos na... pero buo ka pa rin! Kaya mga peeps.... AJA!

LAGI NA LANG...

kahapon ko lang yan sinulat... what i mean is yung poem... naaasar na kasi ako...
actually ganun naman lagi ang theme ng poems ko...laging nagse-self pity... hindi ko kasi maiwasan... yun yung nafee-feel ko eh!

para kasi akong walang kwentang tao...lahat ng sasabihin ko mali...hindi tama...nakakasakit...

hindi naman talaga nila alam ang tunay kong nararamdaman...panu ayaw naman nila ako pakinggan....

Nonsense

Every word that comes out of my lips
Is another word that will come back to me
It will haunt me and will not let me go
It will continue to terrorize and agonize me.

All these words I have come to hate
Every sentence, every phrase, every word
Every syllable, every letter, every sound
I utter... is complete nonsense.

Nobody listens, nobody understands
All these hatred piling up higher
And higher and higher
Until no space is left.

Until no space is left...

written: March 9, 2006

SOMETHING TO DO

I am only one, but still I am one.

I can not do everything, but still I can do something.

And because I can not do everything.

I will not refuse to do something I can do.

I wish I could say that... With the way things are going in my life right now, it's as if I always lack the ability to just do the littlest of things that could really mean a lot.

Why is life like that?

Simple things you can't even do...

And then when it's too late

You strive to do the impossible...